The cure for all ills and wrongs, the cares, the sorrows and the crimes of humanity, all lie in the one word 'love.' It is the divine vitality that everywhere produces and restores life.
Lydia M. Child

"I guess I just prefer to see the dark side of things. The glass is always half-empty. And cracked. And I just cut my lip on it. And chipped a tooth."

&

"We're (women) our own worst enemies a lot of the time, but I still blame men."

&

"I think that by staying out of shape at the age of 33 I'm doing myself a huge favor for my future. There will never be anyone commenting on how I've 'let myself go.' I've gone. It's gone. It's not going, it's GONE."

Will you listen to my story?
It’ll just be a minute,
How can I explain?

Whatever happened here never meant to hurt you,
How can I cause you so much pain?

When I say I’m sorry,
Will you believe me?
Listen to my story,
Say you won’t leave me.
When I say I’m sorry,
Can you forgive me?
When I say I will always be there,
Will you believe, will you believe in me?

All the words that I come up with,
They’re like gasoline on flames.
There’s no excuse, no explanation
Believe me if I could undo what I did wrong
I’d give away all that I own.

When I say I’m sorry,
Will you believe me?
Listen to my story,
Say you won’t leave me.
When I say I’m sorry,
Can you forgive me?

When I say I will always be there,
Will you believe?

If I told you I’ve been cleanin’ my soul,
And If I promise you I’ll regain control,
Will you open your door,
And let me in take me for who I am,
And not for who I’ve been, who I’ve been?
(Who I've been)

When I say I’m sorry,
Will you believe me?
Listen to my story,
Say you won’t leave me.
When I say I’m sorry,
Can your forgive me?
When I say I will always be there,
Will you believe me?

When I say I’m sorry
When I say I’m sorry
When I say I’m sorry
When I say I’m sorry
When I say I’m sorry

Can you forgive me?
When I say I will always be there,
Will you believe?

[ Lyrics found on http://www.metrolyrics.com ]

Today's a reason for living
Today's the blood from a stone
Today's a light from a candle
Helping us to find our way home

Today we carry each other
Today the past is a freak
Today's a time for forgiveness

....Feeling melancholy tonight, re-reading a whole lot of old e-mails and realising how f&%ked I was, and how badly I treated the man who is now my fiancee, simply because I was scared of everything about our situation and myself. Its still no excuse. So if you can forgive me, this is going to be one of possibly many quote posts...
Sorry....lol

Well... today was rent day... as you may have guessed from the title...lol. Nathon and I were supposed to do it together, but it didn't eventuate... probably my fault but I was too sleepy to remember. So it probably was.
Anyway, I watched a little Oprah after Nathon went to work, then decided to get dressed and go do the rent. The best thing is that I fit into my jeans for the first time in over four months! Which means I am losing weight!!! Yah for me. After walking an hour a day something should be happening by now...
So, I got the money order at the mall for the rent and then went on to go layby Nathon's birthday present. Whihc I now have to cancel and start again, because I wanted to get him an MP3, and the one I laybyed was crappy... Only 8 hours playback... But i bought a different one almost like mine only black (so jealous, mine is candy hooker pink), which has 12-15 hours play back. Almost as cheap as the other one on the layby, but better and cheaper than normal for what it is(mine was $199, and we're talking less than half price!)So I am happy and Nathon is scared of all the money I'm spending on him. He's so cute.
Apart from that I took the rent in and met the only human being working at our Real Estate, grabbed a frozen coke on the way home and watched Grand Designs a show about people building houses in the UK. Then I went for my walk and cut a sad, lonely, pathetic 21 year old figure bounching on the see-saw ALONE with dog poop on my shoe. Then came home and watched Lost and tooled around on the net until now... Nathon got home early so I'm gonna go now and make dinner with him.
But heres a pic of the MP3 before I go.... See ya later, Love *Burn

This is my man.... he has the most amazing smile I have ever seen. This was taken at my birthday dinner. But I have cropped my parents out....lol If you saw my dad you'd understand. Yeek! Anyway, some people don't see how beautiful my Nathon is. I do. He is heartachingly lovely. Especially with his ever changing eyes, very touchable hair, softest lips, velvet skin, tickly chin fuzz, and firm sexy ass. Hmmmmmm... sorry, I'm back. And even better, he is just as lovley on the inside. To me he is perfect. I have a suspicion the chick from Video Ezy thought so too... which is partly why we moved to Civic Video... other than that I accidentally stole The Wedding Date fom Video Ezy... ooops. Anyway, I say take that for flirting with my Mr.!

Today bore the second invasion of our little unit by real estate noobs in as many weeks. First there was the Malibu Orc, a withered suicide blondwho accused me of not cleaning my bathroom well enough... although we tried to tell her the stains in the shower she was reffering to were here long before us she remained condescending and cruel ntil I cried. We have proof from the previous real estate that the stains aren't our fault, so she can bite me. The second was today and was conducted by a man who made his tie out of easter egg foil from 1972. We only got the notice last night, so we were frntically cleaning the floor last night lol. And we managed to get caught asleep by the agent this morning. Even though it sucked, it gave us a great idea: our unit is coming up for sale soonish and we are going to try and buy it. Nathon can get a loan easily and the loan repayments will come to less than our current rent, and we can borrow a little more to go to Europe and the US as we've been planning for ages, and while we're away we can rent the unit out and use the rent to make repayments. Than we can have a place to come home to after months away... and when we want to buy our own house, we can sell this one. It all makes sense to us... which probably means we've overlooked something. lol