Life is a bit stressful lately. Armyguy, his folks, asshole-ish real estate agents(being rejected for a house and a unit), it all got me down these last few weeks. Not to mention we're sleeping in the garage now, which is fucking with my dickie chest and Armyguy's, and there are ants and its cold... Sigh.
Today it was all topped off by the fact that there was a small brown snake in our 'bedroom'. Slithering around the corner of the garage. Now, I have held snakes (dead and alive), I've killed snakes(I've had them in my bedroom before...), and I've had huge red belly black snakes strike at me as I almost step on them. I am terrorfied of snakes. I've had nightmares about them since I was a kid. But today I realised just how much I rely on Armyguy to look after me. Because I freaked out max. Then I calmed down and poured metho on it to bring it out from under this thingy(I don't reccomend this action at all), then stabbed it with a crutch until it looked a lot less snake-like. I know some people will see this as cruel. But until you have to sleep in a garage with a snake, don't tell me what is and isn't wrong. My only problem now is wondering if there are more than one in there... Eeek. I really hate snakes. Tonight I know I'm going to wake up screaming. Sigh. Anyway.
We have another unit we're applying for. We are actually garunteed this unit by the rental agent, who Armyguy's mum got to get us a place(the agent belongs to the agency that is selling the house we live in now, so thats probably why she's trying so hard and making everything easier on us). Its big for a unit and its got a huge laundry, great kitchen, pretty tiles on the lounge room floor, big beedroom, built-ins, and our own private courtyard with clothesline and roof-high solid fench. It also has security screens up to wa-zoo which makes me feel better too. The rental agent was taking to Armyguy's mum today via email and she told her that our application is sent to the landlords already and that we'll hear back tomorrow, and that she doesn't see any reason why we wont get it. So, foolishly, I went out this afternoon and bought lavader, marrigold seeds, violets and a snap dragon, and pretty terracotta pots to put them in so I can put them in the courtyard. I am way too excited about this, but I think we really have a good chance this time. Cross your fingers for me. lol Oh my god... I just checked the listing on the internet and our unit is GONE!!! Does this indicate that we have it?? Or that someone else does???? AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!?!?!?! Ok, I'm going to go away now and re-learn how to breath. Back later...

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HOORAY!!! I have a GOOD rental reference from Nash, the God of All Things Cool. He was my RF at my residental college and he wrote today to tell me he'd give me a good reference. I am over every kind of moon because the real estate was already hinting today that we are going to get it just from the info they already had, with a good reference from Nash and from my 2nd personal reference, the eminent Dr Love(real doctor, great if wacky guy, very successful and has so many letters after his name he could start his own alphabet, used to be married to one of my many sisters but came to his senses, divorced her, and is now my family doctor.), I'm thinking we're are, if not home and hosed, then on the road in a dust cload near the home turnoff. Because of delays they will finalise everything on monday, so the weekend will be AGONY. But we are quietly confident so it should take some of the nail-biting heart-attack out of it knowing we have a good chance.  Here's a pic of the house we're applying for... its a cottage in a good part of town with a huge kitchen, two big bedrooms, a great garden and, my personal favourite, lavender in the front yard. Its not perfect, but I don't need perfect, I just want to live in this cute little house with my man. 

The only thing I don't agree with is the high cheat risk... I mean, why leave your Ferrari in the garage and ride a tricycle to work? Makes no sense to me...

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Armyguy got my ring yesterday!!!!
The jeweller finally finished it on tuesday, and Armyguy picked it up on wednesday. It isn't exactly what we asked for, but it is THE SINGLE MOST BEAUTIFUL THING I HAVE EVER SEEN!!!!!!!!! I wasn't supposed to see it, but he relented pretty easy and it is gorgeous! While the rest of my life is throwing a shit fit, at least he and I are happy and still working just fine. Which leads me to my mother being mostly cool with me getting engaged, if not married until a later date. Which is a woah. Armyguy asked her for my hand basically, while we were there to get the couch mum gave us. I wish she could see my ring. It is perfect.  
But she did say last night that all she ever wanted for me was for me to be happy, healthy, safe and loved, and if I have that then what more could she ask for? She is worried that I haven't 'lived' a lot yet, but we talked about what this actually meant, and when I swore blind I wouldn't get married before I had a degree-related job she calmed down. I'm not supposed to know about Armyguy wanting to pop the question. But I did tell her a story about how he made me stay in a shop while he went somewhere I wasn't allowed to know where. She actually said it might be an engagement ring and I laughed it off. I wish my mum was easier, because I would love for her to have experienced all my happiness, not just what she won't flip out about.
I'm at uni at the computer labs. Its almost 8pm. I've been trying to procrastinate so I don't have to go home. Armyguy's parents are scary. Especially his dad. He tries to bully us so he gets his way, but so far we've stood firm. Armyguy has been fantastic about standing up for us and me, he is being so strong. I'm not helping, I get mad a lot about what his dad does. But I respect my man so much for being so strong, for looking after us and for being such a great person. It means everything in the world to me that he's doing this for me and him and us. Anyway, I have to go home soon and be a man about it. Its just awkward, you know? We don't really know what to say to each other that isn't about cleaning the house or Armyguy. But I think I can work through it tonight. I'm still panicing about my rent reference problem(see previous post), but it will be ok. We're going to be ok. I hope... He really loves the house we are applying for and I don't want us to not get it because of me.
Anyway, I better get going. I can cook curry for my boy and me, which should fill in some time. And I have to call my mum back from a missed call I got from her on my moblie. Hmmm.... 
So, until next time, remember: Marry an orphan FOR THE LOVE OF ALL THAT IS HOLY!!!! lol  Nah, if you love the person enough, nothing should be unbearable. This does not mean, however, that you can't get royally pissed off. lol
Bye for now, love and passionfruit lip balm,
*Burn 
  

ARG!!!!
Ok, so the boy and I are trying to rent a house all of our very own, partly because we've been wanting to forever, partly because his folks are trying to make us do things we don't want to, partly because they are also selling the house and therefore are cleaning it and making or lives a barren hell where we are living out of boxes.
So after we survived the parents, survived the real estate's list of stuff we have to supply to them to apply for our house, after his mum wrote a required rent reference letter, my bloody residential college decides to decline to give me a rental reference because I have some debt to them. So, I repeat again:
ARG!!!!
This is bad. I'm pretty sure this will mean we wont get our house. And it will all be my fault. I wrote to pleading e-mails to the financial advisor who e-mailed me and to the director of the whole college, and to a friend of mine who is an RF at the res college. I am just hoping that if they do something then they do something early tomorrow because tomorrow is when we hear yea or nay. I am so scared. Can they actually lawfully decline to give it to me? Will the real estate decline our application because of it? Oh god. If the res bosses say 'no', I'm hoping that Nash will say yes. He's the RF and he's a cool guy, and I'm just hoping he'll do this for me. 
If not, I am the most screwed person EVER, and I have ruined everything for my baby and me.  
But in the mean time, PLEASE avoid res colleges like the plauge because they are expensive, tricky and nasty and I'm not just talking about my reference.  They suck.
If you beleive in any diety at all, could you pray to it for me for us to get our house. It probably won't work, but at this point I need all the help I can get.
Thanks for your ear,
*Burn