WHat the hell is it woth everyone who thinks my pregnancy and my ensuing abortion is FUNNY!?!?!?!??!! Its fucking not funny. I don't care if my breats have gotten bigger, I don't care if it give me a 'real' excuse for leaving uni, it is my CHILD. Its not just a bunch of cells TO ME. To me it is my child. To me it is Frankie. I actually want this child, I just cant have it now... I really would love to see him/her open their eyes for the first time, have their first birthday party, wear Pooh Bear footie pajamas and get their food on the floor. Having a baby inside you(be it a 'bunch of cells' or no) is not a joke. An abortion is not something to schedule for when your room-mate is away so you don't disturbe her with the after hormonal craziness. And it is not acceptable as being given as the reason why your bofriend will remember you if you break up: because you aborted his child.
I actual enjoy being pregnant... it isn't exactly fun with the cramps and stuff, but I don't know... It just feels incredible. Especially to know theres this little life with you. So much possibility. And its not a joke to know that you have to snuff that life out before it gets the opportunity to be someone special.
ELvis has been really awesome about everything... absolutly a rock for me. And AngAyward has done so much for me, she is an angel. But some folk ain't. They just wont take it seriously... and its a serious thing. Maybe not to them... but it is to me. Its my child. My Frankie. And I don't care what anyone says.
I am scared and sad and grieving for the baby I'll lose, and at the same time wishing I could see it grow up.
Nothing is ever going to be the same again.

Love is buying your girl a pink doughnut even though she was mean to you.
But it does not change the fact that leaving her alone all weekend in this kind of state is a shitty thing to do. Just offering to stay would be nice...
Oh yeah, this state is pregnant. I'm pregnant. It sucks.
Elvis nearly died. This sucks too.
I'm leaving uni for a while. This doesn't suck.
I'm seeing a counsellor on tuesday. This is also not a sucky thing.... it might help me get a few monetary and acedemic fines waived when i take off from uni.
Jay called. This was funny. Because Megz was there and she hates him and constantly made cool threats of violence towards him. He's still whingy. And was prying. Arg.
I'm scared, sick, tired, free, disconnected and fat. Bad combination.

Until I can write in constructive sentances, please remember: Contraception is a good thing. Trust me. Use it ALL the time. The fall off the 'It'll never happen to me' horse hurts like a bitch.

*Burn